We know the emotions of any adoption can be difficult, even an open adoption. Do you have an adoption specialist who you can talk to about what you’re feeling? A trained counselor may be able to help you work through these difficulties. You can also try finding adoption support groups near you (https://www.americanadoptions.com/blog/where-to-find-adoption-support-groups/). This article may help, too: https://consideringadoption.com/thoughts-from-a-birth-mother/how-i-cope-with-missing-my-child. Please don’t hesitate to reach out to trusted family and friends during this difficult time. Our thoughts are with you.